I feel sad for certain people. They never had a chance to start out pain free. I wish I could reach into them and pull out their pain and hurt. It hurts to see people who have a need to go out of their way to make themselves an even bigger target. Certain aspects of our personality are readily apparent. They do not need a sign to announce their self destructive behavior.
Sometimes as a result of prolonged pain and feelings of separation, a shattered ego runs their life so well the rest of the world and the people in it become fictitious. They learn to act in any manner they choose, because people and things are only around for their pleasure, to do with what they please. People and things become unreal, only they exist in their carefully crafted world.
If you can see yourself driving this car, please wake up. Do you have anyone in your life who is a real person and an honest friend? Is there anyone who wants to share their life with you? Anyone who is willing to trust you with their life? Are your parents and siblings proud of you and what you have become? Is there anyone who loves and trusts you enough to marry you and have children with you?
I hope when the wake up moment comes for this young Woman, it comes with a whisper, and not a thunderbolt. I am afraid there have been too many thunderbolts already in this young Woman’s life. Let’s hope she regains her real life back before too much more pain, isolation and self destruction.